We draw inspiration from many different things, many things, people, anything. Derek said to me, 'do you know why I like museums? I like them because as a programmer everyone talks about basic or elementary AI but computers will never feel. I like coming to museums because I like to see people's creativity. Humans are creative, they draw inspiration from many things, computers will never have a conscious, they'll never be as creative as humans.'
I just watched "The Finest Hour" and I have become inspired- all I could think about while watching that movie is that the sea can have me. My heart truly belongs to the sea. The sea is a great provider, she can sustain and she can destroy just as easily. I don't know if I owe her but I love her dearly, if she wants me, I will succumb to her will. I find it funny that now my life is in the air but my heart will always be at sea-level or below.
As an avid surfer, as a passionate surfer, as a dedicated surfer, we understand and accept the nature of the beast. She does what she will, as she pleases. If she desires you, she will take you, one way or another by way of undertow, rouge wave, coral that she grows, caves that she shapes, she will have you one way or another.
After thirty years, a young and fast thirty years I've been blessed with the discovery and understanding of passion. True passion is doing something you wouldn't mind dying for. If I die on the mat, if I die in the ring, if I die in the sea, so shall it be for these are the things worth living for. Living in the sky is quickly becoming another passion.
They say, if you love what you do, you'll never work a day in your life. I always believed but was skeptical that I would be lucky enough to experience it. I think I found my place. My place in the air waves of the sky. To love the sea and the sky, I don't know if many are that fortunate to experience such a feeling. Sadly, the only thing I've yet to love is the land. I love the 'āina, surrounded by the Pacific. I love San Francisco the Bay Area, surrounded on three sides by the Pacific. She is my queen, call me a pagan, call me a hopeless romantic, call me a dreamer or daydream believer, call me what you will but true love, you can never take that away from someone and it is all mine to share with you, with my friends, with my family, with the world. I want to see it all, I want to live it all.
I want to be a mermaid, or a honu, or a baby beluga in the deep blue sea, an 'opihi glued to the rocks enjoy the ever crashing waves, or even manō, send me away & return my heart to the ocean for that is where it belongs. Plant half of me on land so I can still be with the ones I love who are still attached to the 'āina but let me grow into a beautiful flowering plant- pikake is my favorite but I find joy in plumeria trees, however tuberose and gardenia scents are beautiful as well or let me grow as a providing fruit tree whether it be a big beautiful mango tree where the keiki can climb and enjoy on a hot day or a lychee tree atop the cooler mountain sides so only the most adventurous will seek my company. Maybe as a tree, rooted in land I shall find love in my next life for her. All I ask is that you return my heart to the sea.
Weirdly yours,
-K
